Secrets.
They are all around.
In ears,
In hallways,
Underground.
Truth creeps up on you
Like no other.
When you least expect or need.
Friends or Backstabbers?
I am no longer sure.
I thought,
I wish,
I knew
It would end up something like this.
So naive.
Oh how was I
So blind
So dumb
So young
Too young to know for sure.
Distance put between two souls.
One is lost
And one controls
The other like dolls
Hooked on strings
Waiting for the piercing ring
Of the text coming next...
I feel like I'm breaking inside.
Put your trust in the hands of a friend.
A journey so long it never ends.
She may break your heart
Worse than any fiend.
I feel like I'm breaking inside.
Laughter echoes within my skull
Ringing
Searing the marrow's bone.
Wants to be amused?
Maybe amusing.
But for me not as much as for her.
Too uptight?
Am I scared?
Hearts breaking?
Life ending?
Who will ever know?
I feel like I'm breaking inside.
Embarrassment takes over like never before.
Melting on the spot.
Blacked out
But, at the same time, not.
Choking up on words that won't appear.
Waiting for answers nowhere near.
I feel like I'm breaking inside.
All natural instincts
Scream to run away
From the state of mind
From the (once thought) kind
girl who I thought was my friend.
But I dont want to end
The bonds we have built;
Far too precious to destruct.
I feel like I'm breaking inside.
Gazing into reflections
Waiting for something to happen.
No one is going to help.
I'll figure it out by myself.
I must hold on.
Try to stay strong.
Live another day.
I am breaking inside.