Having a crush is weird, isn't it? Everything that you thought was silly or cheesy suddenly becomes so cute and funny. Suddenly you start listening to songs like Celine Dione's "My heart will go on" and you like it! Don't deny it, I know what's going on in that head. I mean, does he like me or does he even know I exist...? God damn it, he's so hot and this hair. I wish I could touch this wonderful, beautiful hair. Shit, did I just said that out loud. I mean, that's just nice and normal hair, nothing special about it, nothing special at all... Shit, shit, shit he's looking at me. Just try to look pretty. What did my friend just say? I think it was something funny, everybody is laughing. Good, laugh too and look pretty while doing it. Act normal and just try to relax OK? Good, good, just laugh. Damn it, was that too loud, did it look weird? Oh, oh, I think there is something stuck in my teeth, did he saw it? I don't think so. Just continue laughing without showing your teeth. Oh, the joke's over, oops. He stopped looking at me, is that good or bad? Did I act like a weirdo; I hope not? Please don't think I'm a weirdo because I'm not! Well, usually I'm not. Oh god, he's looking again. OK, just act cool this time. You're a cool girl! Look at you, you're a great person! You have to show him that. Just flip your hair and smile a little bit, but not too much. Oh god, what if that looked selfish, what if he thinks that I'm an arrogant little bitch. Damn it, damn it, damn it! Why did I do that? He's looking away again. This hair and this face, it's so freaking perfect, Jesus Christ! Wow, no, no, calm yourself! For Christ sake, you sound like a psychopath. Just relax, it's just a boy. The hottest and cutest boy you've ever seen, but just a normal boy. He looks so cool standing there, joking with his friends. Maybe I should do something to get his attention or maybe I just continue staring at him until I get his attention. Yep, that sounds like a plan. The teacher's coming, but why does he go to another classroom and why is the classroom right next to where he's standing? Oh no, that means that I have to walk past him and his friends to go to class. Oh god, please no! OK, you can do this! There is just one little problem... I forgot how to walk. Just one foot after the other, good, perfect. Don't fall, don't tremble. Why did I have to wear those heels today, why didn't I chose the sneakers. Damn it, just one foot after the other. Almost there, almost there. "Excuse me?" Oh lord, oh lord... " Excuse me, I think you lost this." My agenda, I didn't notice that I trooped my agenda. He has it in his hands! Our fingers touch when he gave it back. I think I'm going to pass out.