Car ride.
don't know them
but they take me home.
Music.
Filling the car like water.
I float through the darkness
in the backseat.
Them.
Singing to the lyrics
at the top of their lungs.
I don't know the song.
Drowning
in the feeling
that this is all I want.
I would do anything.
Car stops.
Empties.
Him and I, we're alone.
Stranded.
I'm Quiet.
He's my stormy sea
my up and down. up and down. up and down.
It makes me dizzy.
Eye contact
with the floor.
My sea rains down on me,
it's a warm shower.
"I got kicked out“ I tell him.
“Sucks to be you.
Are you gonna kiss me or what?“
Of course I do.
Suddenly I sink.
It's his face on mine
and here I am again.
Yes.
No!
It's all I want
but it's not
Still I'm taking it. Why?
Love Me.
I can't make it to the surface
his body weighs me down
I'm at the bottom.
“Stop!“
My head breaks through the water after all
I take a deep breath.
He says: “ I'm not doing anything.“
He pushes me back down.
I don't fight it.
Love me.
Don't.
Please.