Today
Today I am not going to talk about a shockingy revealing sad truth about myself
Not that I wouldn't find one; indeed
I went through hard times, failures, eating disorder, sleep deprivation and break downs.
But I am finally out of that circle- I am aware that this is nothing compared to the lives of others and
nothing compared to all the opportunities that I've got.
I woke up from that nightmare right into a different one:
Almost everyone is in that illusion of misery and pity.
I am shocked to see that.
Life should be a dream
At least for us, it should be easy to taste from it.
But instead we focus on what we don't have
What we don't know and what we are not able to
We complain, judge, come up with excuses, compare and are afraid.
We don't take opportunities
Because we take our lives for granted.
We don't see beauty
Because it's easier to close the eyes.
We don't change
Because that would mean a possible loss.
We don't dare
Because we think we have time.
-But the trouble is
We don't have time, we don't own anything and
Sooner or later our eyes will be forced to be opened,
but then regret will be the only thing left for us to see.
We hold on to those false beliefs-
like depression and overthinking are signs of intelligence
like not following your dream would make you a better person-less egocentric
like self-pitying and criticising is making your life more real.
Why do we believe that this dream is not meant for us?
Why are we defining reality on bad, and sad stuff?
Why not change our mind-sets and define reality in possibilities and mistakes within an ongoing cycle?
Why is it only in really tough times, like while having a serious illness that we notice what is important to us?
Why is it often only when we get older or when it's too late that we start to live the life we should have lived the whole time?
What I meant with "I am out of that circle" is not that I got immune against failures, crying or douts.
Of course not-as it is part of this world.
But I will make the difference between things worth crying and be sad for-
and the ones not.
When I get a bad test, I won't cry.
When I get overweight, I won't cry.
When a stranger insults me, I won't cry.
Because I want to profit from every moment
that is given to me to taste from this dream, that is life.
That dream is for everyone who is willing enough
to dare to change and to open the eyes.
It is right in front of you. Just go for it.
Be brave. Be confident.
You only live once. Every breath is a gift.
Don't give in. Accept. Trust.
Dance. Kiss. Sing. Hug.
Forgive. Laugh. And most importantly:
Live.