How am I supposed to look at you in a normal way
How am I supposed to feel good at the end of the day
How am I supposed to survive all this
How am I supposed to bear this daily kiss
I want to run away from all this mess
I want to hide under my mattress
I feel controllable, powerless
Loving you was after all hopeless
You clearly screwed my life up
You made me change my mind
For you I didn't have to put on make up
But in fact I was so blind
My feelings were based on my hope
That one day we could grow old
I always held onto the rope
And I will until I am bold
Here and now I'd like to say
That I am sorry anyway
I appreciated our friendship
But I need to end this emotional trip
My heart can't take it anymore
You entirely broke it that's for sure
That's why I lay here and pour
Vodka in my glass until I even miss you more
Deep inside I know that I won't get over you
But at least I'm trying to I see you're happy without me
My last chance is to break free
From this cage you held me hostage
All the hatred and the rage
Nevertheless will I need you
All the things you put me through
Will I keep in memory
Until you set them free
You and me, just like a symphony
We fit together just perfectly
Oh why can't you see
The damage is done I ought to move on
I hate the way everything leads back to you
It's like you always knew
What you will put me through
All the tears that I cried
The pattern they drew on my face
You washed away and destroyed their trace
Until my face was eminently dried
You lifted my head, reconstructed my grace
You made me remember my pride
You built me up with your warm embrace
Into your arms I'd doubtlessly glide
But your mind is like a maze
Even when you never left my side
I get lost in your humanity
All my love that was left in me
You managed to set free
I just hope that you will see
That I love you endlessly
But excuse me
I just have to flee
You tried to make me stay
Promised me it will be okay
But I must make sure
That I don't miss you no more